F.I.L.A

oboiteru! (haha, ntah ye ntah idok, saje suke2)

i still remember him... i think he was my first crush.

jodoh panjang ngan dia. we were classmates in SHAMS. then i transferred to another school. he too transferred to the same school. we were picked randomly to form classes. once again we became classmates.

rumor said that we're going to stay in the same class for 5 whole years we study there. but then, when we're about to 'naik' to form 3, ade pembubaran kelas at that time. lagi skali, kami kekal dalam kelas yang sama.

oh yeah, i forgot to mention this, i kinda have feelings for him when we first transferred to the new school, SMKARA. we kept being 'thrown' to the same class.  i liked him the way he was. he's funny, witty (sometimes, haha) back then, when i had a crush on him, he was nobody (but i liked him anyways) well, u know the feelings, heart racing when he's near, always smiling whenever u think of him. just hearing the name can make u feel happy and all 'flowery' inside. a.f.a.m, yes! he was my FILA.

after sometimes he began to 'shine'. he entered all kinds of competition, participated in debates, bla3x. well, long story short, he became one popular student at SMKARA. at that moment, many girl students seem to like him, to open their eyes/heart to him. well, for me, i just look from afar. (T-T) he was out of my league.

i remember that one time, some girls usik dia, and took his dictionary. he couldn't take it coz they put it at the back of the class. and then he was like all charming and smiling : 'hidayah... hidayah baik kan??? tolong amik kamus saye buleh?' aaaaahhhhh... i was melting inside. i got up and reached his dictionary, intending to give it back to him. but then a voice stopped me. 'kalu mu wi ke ye, maknenye mu nok ke ye!', said this girl, the one that 'took hostage' of his dictionary.  come to think about it, i should've just given him back his dictionary. so what?!! people will gossip. well, not really sure if it's qualified as gossip, coz it's kinda the truth. i do like him. memang aku nok ke ye pong! hoho ( sunggoh x malu diriku ini, ngeh3x)

it has been a long time since we finished school. we never met again. by right, my feelings for him should be gone. it was just a crush anyway. cinta munyet, kate orang melayu. hoho. but then, i was quite wrong. i got the news that he's getting married, to our schoolmate. well, i didn't feel anything. . .(yeah, i know, not really my place to feel anything pun. it's not like we had anything going on between us. it was just me, clapping with just one hand. ngeh3x)

but my, seeing his pictures ( i looked on his profile on fb just now), brings back memories. a smile crept to my face, and i felt like laughing (just so u know, i did laugh, for no particular reasons). i couldn't help it. that warm feelings came inside me. i felt like teenagers again, head over heels with my once upon a time crush.

but wake up girl! he's taken. stop 'koya'ing! huahahaha.

sayonara.